There I was, crying to perfectly good men that I friend zoned. And then.. There you were, laughing with your women and friends about all these flaws that I couldn’t change. I CAN’T CHANGE EVEN IF I TRIED, NOT NOW - NOT EVER. Don’t try to change me, don’t try to make me her, don’t try to make me you. My eyes are finally open, if you don’t take me for who and what I fully am — HE will, THEY will. I know it because not only do you realize something good you used to have when it’s gone, but you realize it most when you’ve experienced worse. And you my friend, is worse. I’m still here because I choose to be, not because I can’t let you go like how it was in the past; I’m here because I choose to bear the pain you inflict. I can’t complain because I’m choosing this path with you — but being with you is a choice, not a trap I used to set up for myself. So, before you go around on your high horse with your head up your ass, I can so easily choose to step away from you and into a different light. This decision will come so easily I won’t have the time to shed tears. So let’s be frank here, we’re both grown - let our feelings deal with themselves, don’t force yourself upon me and I won’t upon you either.
So yea i finally decided to go get my rook pierced it didn’t hurt as much as i thought in the beginning about a 4/10 and then at the last second it was a 6 /10 I’m really happy i did it though